What do you dream about?

We talked yesterday and I got closure. I heard from him that it's not me, it's the time and the place. He doesn't want a girlfriend in college and said himself he needs to figure out what love is. 

He's just still a boy...

Now, today is Day 1 of Recovery. 

I decided to stay with friends last night because of the party going on... I couldn't stay at home and wallow...

It was pleasant but not distracting. And every time I wake up I just want to cry; mornings just remind you of reality. 

Will is seriously such a good friend. He turned my day around a bit.

Besides the whole party thing...

Boxing is amazing. Just saying. 

Today is a particularly bad day.


( Ugh.Collapse )

The girls breakfast didn't do me much good. I couldn't eat most of my food. 
Hated shopping because the only time I ever went shopping was for a new outfit for Alex to see me in.
And the movies just remind me of "Missing Someone" or "Loving Someone." 

( I need a new life.Collapse )

I tried to just go a day without crying.

And about an hour ago it literally physically felt like something hit me right in the chest and all I wanted to do was see him or talk to him or something. I texted a friend in a panic and he said, "be strong."

I had to cry. After crying though, I felt much better.

These feelings are too heavy to bottle or contain. They're going to do what they want.

The other girlfriends of the group want breakfast in the morning. I'm not really in the group anymore but the guys still talk to me.

Idk how I'll manage, but I'll try. 

I think I want to start writing again... 

Let me think...
This journal isn't open mainly because I have random rants about my life that you may not care about, haha. But I do leave certain things open for a certain amount of time that are open to comments! 
I enjoy talking about Asian pop culture, particularly Korean, as well as student life, my life, things that make me happy, things that make me sad, and the future. I love it when people tell me about themselves as well. I made this in order to become a part of omonatheydidnt because I was tired of not being able to comment but I have found it to be a good outlet for myself.

A little about me...
I'm finishing up my last year of high school and will be going onto college to study international business, east Asian language and end up in law. During the summer of 2012, I will be in South Korea, as well as visiting Japan and China. 
I have always had an absolute love for Asian culture for some reason and was often made fun of for it. It made me super happy when I found out about omona and other people that weren't necessarily of Asian decent but held an admiration and respect for it. That, of course, morphed into present-day culture and the fabulous appeal of the men which ended up being my type.
I'm a very friendly and optimistic person. I believe that anyone can do anything they want to as long as they give it their all. I hate conflict and it actually really shakes me up when it happens, even online. However, I don't let my anxiety show and always stand my ground. I don't mind debating but I can't stand being attacked, which is what bothers me.
I'm not invincible but I always try to be the person I would look up to. I'm random and outgoing and I'm someone you can always trust even if you have no reason to. It drives me crazy when people comment on things I have said assuming that I have been through nothing. I've been through more in less than 20 years of life than most have in 80. I never judge people before knowing them, so I request the same.
I have a bias from almost every single band in the world of K-Pop but I stan DBSK/JYJ. My number one bias is Kim JaeJoong but he's followed by Noh MinWoo and Choi SeungHyun. I also stan Vin Diesel and Dwayne Johnson.
I watch poker, Food Network, Style, GSN, SyFy and G4 all the time when I don't have a drama I'm addicted to. I actually like Japanese dramas a bit more than Korean. Haha.

I shoot for galaxies far, far away because I'll land among the brilliance of stars I've never seen before.

I don't know what else to write for now,
so baiiii!! <3

Hopefully you'll learn more about me!

Wooo!!



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